brokenheartalchemist

This is just me making a journal of all the cosplays I hope to do in the future (when I'm not utterly broke and jobless T-T)


Grell Sutcliff - Kuroshitsuji
Amaterasu - Okami
Lacus Clyne - Gundam Seed Destiny
Megurine Luka - Vocaloid
Marisa Kirisame - Touhou/Touhouvania
Mew/Raver Mew - Pokemon
Templar Courtesan - Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood
Harley Quinn - Arkham City
Yurine - Karas
Estellise Sidos Heurassein - Tales of Vesperia


...that's all I can remember I'll post more when I think of them~

Well I've lived in my new house for a few months now and I guess things are going fine. It's taking a lot of getting used to everything out here. I went from a small town country girl to the Chicago suburbs, affectionately known as the 'Sector 7 Slums' by a few of my friends. I was able to keep all of my stuff from the other house so my room doesnt look too bad. I used to have tons of wallscrolls, but I can't put any of them up here unfortunately because the walls are just wayy too tiny (my room is shaped like a hexagon if that offers you any idea of what I'm working with). I managed to find a few small printed out pictures from my old days of loving Inuyasha and DNAngel and have those taking up a small section beside my bed, but other than that the walls are barren, white, and pretty banged up.

We actually have neighbors now, but none of them really talk or anything. They pretty much just stay holed up in their houses. There of course aren't any people around here my age to really hang with and the only places in walking distance are the five cemetaries surrounding where I live. Not gonna lie, it gets pretty boring around here pretty fast. I mean at least out in Oswego I can just call up somebody and be like 'come pick my ass up and lets hang!' which out here is an impossiblity. I live forty minutes away from my friends, and just getting people out here for a small birthday gathering was a hassle. Shame only two of them could come, but I don't blame the others as they had stuff that needed to get done. I wish I could find some way/time to hang with them all, but between travel arrangements, money, and schedules it looks like I'm gonna have to wait till Thanksgiving or Christmas unless I get lucky.

College is going fine. It's a hell of a lot better than high school. I'm taking Bio, Anthro, English, and History & Culture of Japan. They're all ok classes except for Anthro which is boring the hell out of my brain and aggrivating me because the teacher has taught us absolutely nothing in that class -.-

I haven't really met anybody in my classes. Most of them already have their little groups they talk to and from listening in to their conversations, none of them like anything close to what my interests are. I hang out in the nerd lounge for three hours inbetween my classes, and there's some cool people down there, but it doesn't really feel like I fit in. Sure they're into anime and games and things like that, but I don't know. I just get this feeling when I'm down there that all I'm doing is watching, even when I'm trying to participate and involve myself in things. All I really end up doing down there is getting occassionally tickled while watching 'That Guy With The Glasses' type videos from some guy's laptop. Not that there's really anything wrong with that, but I do enough of that kind of thing when I'm not in school and have nothing else to do.

I really only know two people out here. There's my boyfriend, but unfortunately our class schedules make it so we really don't have any hanging out time, not to mention the fact that he lives 20 away from me. The only other person I know out here is another friend from high school who had moved, but just like with the boyfriend he doesn't live nearby and our classes make it pretty much impossible to hang.

My mom and my brother both have jobs now so they're usually gone for most of the day. It's just me, my two dogs, and my four cats until about 5 give or take depending on who gets off of work first. There really isn't much to eat in this house and money is still not doing too good. It really says something when the McDonald's dollar menu is a luxury. I know I joke about that all the time, but when you really can't spare twelve bucks for dinner because you barely have enough for gas to drive places.... yea. I mean we have food stamps thankfully but we use them up every month getting basics. And they don't cover things like toilet paper, clothes washing deteregent, hygene stuff, and all those other little necessities. It really sucks having to split up the little money you get, especially when you look back only a few years ago and remember living a rich life where the biggest problem you had was deciding what expensive anime box set to buy, or what nice place you wanted to go and have dinner at, or how much money you could weasle out of your mom to go to the movies each week (including getting icecream after every show). It really gives you a reality check when life as you knew it just falls out from under you, literally overnight.

So yea. Really isn't much else to say. Nothing new is going on out here. Just me watching random disney movies while surfing the web. I would watch more anime online, but the internet out here sucks for watching videos of any kind (it took me quite literally the entire day to fully load the Star Trek movie on my computer x.x we're working on getting faster internet but thats really hard to find at our price range). So yea, I guess I'll update again when something interesting happens.



Btw, if this sounded like a rant or something along those lines I'm sorry ;; really wasn't my intention. Just me being bored and randomly writing down whatever came to mind.

. . . Today I had a random girl I've never met before say one of the nicest things to me I've ever heard. Me and a few friends went down to the theatre today to see Alice in Wonderland when the girl behind the counter (a friend of one of mine) told me that I had beautiful hair, continuing to bring that up all through the night at least every 5 minutes. Despite that it isn't the compliment I'm talking about, I've never thought that my hair was all that wonderful. It's a pretty brown in my opinion, but it's unnaturally straight and unfortunately has a lot of split ends. It was nothing special compared to some girls' I've seen, and I've never really been one to care too much about the perception of beauty of my generation, but to hear that from her was really nice all the same.



A little later on, though, was when she really made me smile. She told me that I reminded her of those girls you see in movies that really aren't noticed, don't stand out in a crowd and are usually passed by without a second glance . . . but when you really get to know them and talk to them, really listening to what they have to say, they end up being the coolest person you ever meet . . .



. . . I didn't grow up getting many compliments from people. I've always been that weird little Plain Jane to everyone else. Even my own parents didn't really lavish me with kind words like that . . . . . . so hearing that come from this girl who had never met me, never having heard of who I was or what kind of person I am . . .



. . . I'm still smiling . . . . . .

~Alright, so I pretty much just made this for the hell of it or for those who were wondering how I'm coming along on this. For those friends of mine who are not aware, I am currently making a cosplay from scratch (I'm actually not buying it off of ebay! ^^ though of course it's still my best friend for shopping~)

~For those curious as to who I'm trying to pull off, it is Serah Farron from Final Fantasy XIII:   reference: media.photobucket.com/image/se…


~So yea, figured I'd just jot down really quickly how far along I am with it~




*Wig- 0%

*Hair Accessory- 95% (Construction)

*Earrings- 50%? (Need to attatch them to clip-on's (Don't have my ears pierced))

*Necklace- 0% (Not sure if I'll have this)

*Leather Armband- 0%

*Bandage- 0%

*Shirt- 0%

*Overshirt- 0%

*Bracelet- 95% (Construction)

*Skirt- 67.2% (Need gold thingy still)

*Thigh Highs- 0%

*Thigh High Accessories (Bands + Pouch Thing)- 0%

*Boots- 50% (Need to buy paint)

Haven't made one of these in a while so I figured I'd tell those of you who don't ANSWER YOUR PHONES (you know who you are XD) and just anyone who cares about whats been going on lately. Kind of a way to vent for right now I guess.


No this isn't an emo journal entry to rant about my life, but there are a few things that aren't really going well for me that I just wanna jot down really quick. But I'll leave that for the end.


Basically I've been having a decent summer so far. Been hanging out with my friends when I can otherwise I'm content up in my room watching random movies, reading fanfics, and listening to my ipod ^^ Sure the air conditioning doesn't work in my room (never has), but hey! At least it's summer and not the winter. I've got a little more tolerance for heat so I'd rather be sweating in a hot box then freezing my ass off in an ice box!!!

Recently went out and saw the midnight showing of Transformers 2 with my friends, which might I add is BADASS!!! ^^ It pretty much made up for me missing the annual end of the school year festival in my town with rides and all sorts of goodies. Unfortunately I was entertaining a.......... friend of mine from another state who hates carnival rides ^^ *mentally strangles*


Moving on X3


I've been in an Assassin's Creed mood for a while now so that's been my muses main focal point since I saw the first pictures released of Ezio Auditore.... didn't help my cause to chill from it much when ACen came around and I found an AMAZING cosplayer who I wasn't expecting to see until after the game came out ^^ It brightens up my day if only a little bit when I think back on it.

So yea, eventually I'm gonna start working on getting my license again.... let's just say that I'm not the best driver in the world. And now I have to rely on my mom to take me out driving (who has no patience whatsoever) instead of my dad due to some complications I've recently been having.

I wanted to get a job at this one place with another friend of mine at the start of the summer, but because I had my friend up here for 2 weeks I didn't apply for it. Now it's too late and there aren't any jobs around for me to take. I want to actually have my first ever job so that I can earn my own money and be more independent. Cosplays aren't gonna make themselves afterall. I need a new wig for my Lacus cosplay, I need to make/buy her one hair clip, and I need to make some adjustments to my costume as well. Plus if I could actually find a PINK Haro toy that isn't a plushie or something like that and is the right size....

THAT WOULD BE FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! X3

But alas, for now, I ish screwed T-T



So yea, now for the little bit more depressing news.

Things really aren't going too good with the house. For those of you who don't know, I basically used to be rich because my stepdad had a good high paying job with engineering so he gave us a comfortable life style. Then he passed away a couple years ago and unfortunately my mom doesn't know how to stop spending money even though she has no job and the taxes out here are OUTRAGEOUS!

There was supposed to be insurance that got rid of the mortgage after he died, but unfortunately he had a disease that made it so he couldn't get it, leaving my family with a house worth over a million dollars back before the economy collapsed... now it's not even worth half of that. We have to pay off the 400k-ish mortgage on a house thats currently on the market for 490k.... it's been fun.

My mom was talking about some stuff with me yesterday about things with the house. My mind basically blanked most of it out because it didn't want to deal with it at that point (REALLY didn't help that I was MAJORLY PMSing that day either -.- gotta love mother nature) so at this point I only remember that we have to get rid of one of our cars because we can't afford the payments anymore, and that my mom is heavly considering doing one of those things where you have people walk through your house and everything they see is for sale unless told by the owners. 'Going down to basics' my mom calls it.

We'd probably be selling off 75% of all of our stuff that we have: everything in the dining room, everything but a couch in our living room, everything in our one lounge room, most of the stuff in the kitchen, the basement stuff, the spare bedroom stuff, almost my mom's entire bedroom, everything in our 2 giant garages, and probably a lot of stuff from me and my brothers rooms. If it came down to it I'd probably only be able to keep my bookshelf, my bed, my tv and video games, my dresser, and a few other small items like my wall scrolls if she lets me keep all my anime stuff.


Lifes been a little more of a pain lately, but I've been managing fine and life goes on. I just figured all my friends should know whats been going on recently....... well, at least the few who bother to read this. But hey *shrug* it gets passed down the line anyways.


On a lighter note...






I have yummy applesauce!!! X3